It has been a hot summer.
A sewing friend of mine was telling me about another sewer I admire, one who always tries the patterns first and does something neat and creative like emboss her velvet with stamps ... I mean a major performance sewer, has lately been running into the kitchen in the middle of the night to press bags of frozen peas to her chest.
I found this very comforting. If someone who embosses velvet has resorted to frozen peas then I might be normal after all.
It has been one of those summers where I have gone on line with my morning coffee and used search terms like "coping and menopause". I have found out a few interesting facts. First one is that it is possible to head off, or at least downshift a hot flash by deep breathing and relaxing thoughts. There is a real connection between stress and hot flashes, which is why you get one when you lock the keys in the car.
As an experiment, and because there is not much to do at 4:00 a.m. when no one wants to talk, I focus on things like buttons I love, or say, interfacing. It works. And when I have trouble falling back to sleep (it's all part of the same transition) I imagine to myself I am the owner of a cool little fabric shop, and I think what I would stock on those shelves. I go over all the possibilities in my head and sometimes I fall back to sleep around the Swiss cottons and the dupionni. Or if I stay awake I don't care anymore.
Another fact that I read on the midlife sites was that women at this stage of their lives sometimes lose the ability to fantasize. I don't know about that, just maybe the fantasies change.
And maybe I should call this blog, gone over the edge ...