The last few days I have been divesting myself of considerable sewing supplies. After having lived lean in the supply department in Florida I realized that my ought-to-dos, piled high, were getting to me.
I have collected so many potential projects that no matter what I made I always felt I was behind.
This is stupid.
So I decided to pass on the things that I didn't actually enjoy making, no matter how high my hopes have been, no matter how many components I have collected. I have found a taker for my embroidery threads, for many expensive mail order patterns, for a half ton of lingerie fabric and findings.
I have kept all good fabric, dress fabric and patterns that are TNTs or have that potential.
Why was I cluttering my sewing brain for so many decades?
The bottom line is that having so much around me that didn't totally excite me was getting in the way of enjoying what I was actually sewing and enjoying sewing.
I love to sew dresses, and some skirts, and tops. I find bra sewing annoying, too many little pieces and slippery fabrics with 1/4" seams and I haven't embroidered anything in about five years and have no desire to.
I did one soothing, and virtuous thing though. I did get caught up on one of my ghost-from-the-past projects. I made pillow forms today, lots of them with stuffing I had saved forever. I also finally fixed a cushion up that matches the pattern on the couch that a dog chewed off so long ago that I can't remember the last time I dusted the urn with his ashes in it at the back of the cupboard.
The pattern on the couch has faded, but the cushion now looks bright and brand new.
Of course I have covers to make for these pillow forms next and I will. Soon. I have decided my chairs need a whole lot of cushions.
I was shocked to read the other day that designers like to put a cushion every foot and a half on seating which means we have been really uncomfortable all these years and didn't even know it.
Pillow form sewing seemed to be about all I could handle today since I only had a few hours sleep.
We had a big family dinner (12) last night and I was too tired to start my marking when I had finished cleaning up, so I went to bed at about 11:00. Of course once I was in bed I lay there thinking about all the marking and my sewing room and what else I needed to liberate and the next think you know it was 4:00 a.m. and I was still awake.
The internet says if you are awake for no reason a whole night because you have things on your mind you need to see someone about all that stress.
Where am I going to find someone I can sit down and say "I was trying to decide if I can line a grey coat with black and the next thing you know it was 4:00?"
Where am I going to find someone who understands that this falls under the category of racing thoughts (I can feel my blood pressure going up right now. What about red? Too cliche?)
Anyway I just got up at 4:00 had a tea and some cereal and all my marking was done by 7:13.
Which left me the whole day, but not enough energy to do more than pillow forms.
But it was meant to be.
I don't think that chewed up cushion should have to wait another ten years.
Anyone else ever have a night like that?